Car stolen

Today was a rough day to say the least. First of all I've had a hard time managing myself while being unemployed. It's the worst, there is nothing to do and then I sleep and then my schedule is all out of whack and then I don't exercise as much as I should and then I get depressed. And then I walk outside and my car is missing.

Yeah, its a terrible feeling. Its kinda like when you get to the check out counter at the store and realize you don't have your wallet. Not only that but you remember having it when you left the house and you know its not in the car. The difference is that you have to replace the wallet with your car and the check out counter with the parking lot...yeah, I think that works. Anyways its one of those 'nooo, thats not, no, its gotta be, um, its not gone, one of my family members must have driven it somewhere, or maybe...no, this isn't happening, it can't happen' moments. It's actually one of my biggest fears, second to walking out of the store to find that my car is gone. So I guess that's a bonus right?

I still don't think its set in all the way. I mean the keys are in my pocket, I locked it last night when I got out. How, how could this happen? I mean I was also disappointed because there were things of sentimental value in there. My tennis rackets, my little purple robot man that got fried in the sun last summer, my green rugs, my little McDonalds milkshake man. My GPS, oh Sheila, I will miss so much your accent! Even if they find my car, I know the GPS will be gone, probably my good tennis racket, and also my brown hat that a friend bought me for my birthday 5 years ago. OK maybe the hat will still be in there, but its just sad. 

The thing is that as sad as I am its not really that bad, I still went home teaching, still hung out with Jake and Fefi. The car is just a thing, the stuff in it is just stuff. Its been neat to just feel the calmness of it all that comes from knowing the purpose of life and that these trials are momentary. Yeah, its gonna suck for a couple days at the very least. I don't have close to enough money to buy a car right now but you know what, that's OK. Life isn't about smooth sailing and easy answers. It's about learning and handling different situations. I could freak out and think its the end of the world. But there is a calmness that the Spirit brings that just helps you to know things are gonna end up OK. Now I didn't say that I felt like things are gonna end up OK now, things could definitely get worse before they get better but that's life and how its supposed to be. I know everything is in God's hands, seriously I was just talking to Jake yesterday and I said, dude if my car went out right now I would be so screwed, I don't have near enough money for a new car. 

I awaken the next day, go outside and realize, I am so screwed.

Maybe its a blessing somehow, I guess time will tell. Sometimes I feel like my emotions are broken or something. I mean you see people on TV freaking out about the stupidest little things, but this happens and I am like 'well this sucks, lets go to A&W'. Obviously I am not saying that to be like 'oh my car is gone? who cares I'll just get another', but I am saying that I almost expected myself to get angry or I'm not sure. I just felt calm, I guess I probably would have freaked out if I didn't have the church in my life. Well I'm done talking about this for today. Happy Holidays guys!