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Republicans
Circle I Limbo

Democrats
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

Steve Jobs
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

Goths
Circle IV Rolling Weights

Rednecks
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

Parents who bring squalling brats to R-rated movies
Circle VI Buried for Eternity

River Phlegyas

PETA Members
Circle VII Burning Sands

Osama bin Laden
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement

Nancy Pelosi
Circle IX Frozen in Ice

Design your own hell

Found the car!

have no fear. they found it, probably can be fixed. everything inside is missing, including dirty pillows. jacket from DI, marshmellow guns, mcdonalds toy, dex, sheila the gps. my tennis racket. granted the last two are worth something. why take the rest?!

Car stolen

Today was a rough day to say the least. First of all I've had a hard time managing myself while being unemployed. It's the worst, there is nothing to do and then I sleep and then my schedule is all out of whack and then I don't exercise as much as I should and then I get depressed. And then I walk outside and my car is missing.

Yeah, its a terrible feeling. Its kinda like when you get to the check out counter at the store and realize you don't have your wallet. Not only that but you remember having it when you left the house and you know its not in the car. The difference is that you have to replace the wallet with your car and the check out counter with the parking lot...yeah, I think that works. Anyways its one of those 'nooo, thats not, no, its gotta be, um, its not gone, one of my family members must have driven it somewhere, or maybe...no, this isn't happening, it can't happen' moments. It's actually one of my biggest fears, second to walking out of the store to find that my car is gone. So I guess that's a bonus right?

I still don't think its set in all the way. I mean the keys are in my pocket, I locked it last night when I got out. How, how could this happen? I mean I was also disappointed because there were things of sentimental value in there. My tennis rackets, my little purple robot man that got fried in the sun last summer, my green rugs, my little McDonalds milkshake man. My GPS, oh Sheila, I will miss so much your accent! Even if they find my car, I know the GPS will be gone, probably my good tennis racket, and also my brown hat that a friend bought me for my birthday 5 years ago. OK maybe the hat will still be in there, but its just sad. 

The thing is that as sad as I am its not really that bad, I still went home teaching, still hung out with Jake and Fefi. The car is just a thing, the stuff in it is just stuff. Its been neat to just feel the calmness of it all that comes from knowing the purpose of life and that these trials are momentary. Yeah, its gonna suck for a couple days at the very least. I don't have close to enough money to buy a car right now but you know what, that's OK. Life isn't about smooth sailing and easy answers. It's about learning and handling different situations. I could freak out and think its the end of the world. But there is a calmness that the Spirit brings that just helps you to know things are gonna end up OK. Now I didn't say that I felt like things are gonna end up OK now, things could definitely get worse before they get better but that's life and how its supposed to be. I know everything is in God's hands, seriously I was just talking to Jake yesterday and I said, dude if my car went out right now I would be so screwed, I don't have near enough money for a new car. 

I awaken the next day, go outside and realize, I am so screwed.

Maybe its a blessing somehow, I guess time will tell. Sometimes I feel like my emotions are broken or something. I mean you see people on TV freaking out about the stupidest little things, but this happens and I am like 'well this sucks, lets go to A&W'. Obviously I am not saying that to be like 'oh my car is gone? who cares I'll just get another', but I am saying that I almost expected myself to get angry or I'm not sure. I just felt calm, I guess I probably would have freaked out if I didn't have the church in my life. Well I'm done talking about this for today. Happy Holidays guys!

Van Helsinglike Dreamagination

So first off i'll start with the attire, to set the mood. Naturally. Imagine a mix of that trench coat on van helsing and the suit on that swat looking guy, there was also just a black ski mask instead of a helmet but it didn't have a mouth hole and we had black goggles instead of that faceplate...thing. I also had a shotgun hanging from the trench coat and we were loaded with guns and ammo.

Yeah pretty great right. So it starts out and me and this girl with a black ponytail are dressed exactly the same and look identical, with the sole difference that her ponytail is poking out of the back of the ski mask, we are in the middle of a huge hay field on a clear sunny day with a slight breeze blowing past. I assume for visual effect. We walk a few steps and find a trapdoor which was made from old thick and heavy timber, i'm guessing it was about 4ft x 4ft wide, i grabbed the metal ring handle and yanked up the door. My partner immediatly jumped down into the dark.

I heard gunshots and saw the flashes of light from them. I jumped down and we were in a hallway. We ran back and forth across the opening shooting at vampires that were attacking village people in this gigantic dirt room. It was cavernous and looked like i would imagine the inside of a pyramid to look lit with really really bright torches. 

I was using an uzi at first but then when that ran out of ammo i switched to the shotgun and then to pistols. Eventually after running out of ammo and having a really cool fight scene, i ran in and noticed that there was just one vampire left. The villagers had her corned with pitchforks and she was hissing at people, i walked over and grabbed three wooden crosses about the size of my hand and juggled them around her. she then turned back to normal. I walked up a really long flight of stone steps and came to a piano in the center of a small room. A man was sitting at one end and there were keys on both sides of this piano. the notes were assembled on top of the piano on little tiles like scrabble pieces. I sat down and he said 'play!' I began to play and after a few notes, made a mistake. He yelled, 'AGAIN!' I tried to play and messed up again, so he yelled 'again' and i tried again, messing up. He yelled 'again' and i quickly arose and yelled back, 'Tell me where dracula went!'

He responded, 'to the west'. then got up and walked away. I went back down the stairs to the village people. I said that dracula had gone west and they fearfully replied, 'that WAS dracula!' I yelled, 'NOOOOO'

Thats it.
Click the drawing for a close up that you can read better.

Terminator dream

So a few months after the terminator salvation movie came out in theaters i had a weird dream about it. it went something exactly or similar to this.


So it twas a normal day til i had suspicions about my neighbors possibly being oh my gosh i think i have trust issues...sorry, momentary realization there. a lot of my dreams seem to center around people im close to turning on me even though it hasn't happened often. anyways back to the dream. I started checking into it and figured out that they were really terminators, the things the said, the way they moved, just looked a little off. I started looking into a way to kill terminators and found out about a knife that was a harder metal that what the terminators were made of and could cut through and destroy them. I went to work getting one, i think it was coming in a package via FedEx. 

I was on my way downstairs to get the package and my brother was being weird, my suspicions about him starting arising, then my dad seemed a bit odd. Pretty soon i questioned the old guy who was at my house for no apparent reason yet i know that he was supposed to be there. There seems to always be one of those people that you don't know, yet it makes perfect sense to you in the dream that they would be there. So i casually head back upstairs and grab my metal tball bat. Tball bats are pretty much clubbing size and i figured i could rock them pretty well with that. 

So i head down to the kitchen and just crack my brother over the head and sure enough, his head tilts but he just slowly turns back like nothing happened and punches me like 10 feet away, so then i realize that it was kinda stupid but its too late to change the plan now and i just keep dodging and hitting people in the head as hard as i can. Upon finally waking up, i was tired. No i did not die, i think that my brain just woke me up cuz it realized that the dream wasn't going anywhere. i was trapped, and they couldn't kill me cuz i was too fast, and i couldn't destroy them because they were metal invincible robots. If you've seen a terminator movie you know exactly what i mean.

Eventually i was seeing parts of metal behind their faces, but they were far from injured as machines. so yeah, thats that. Not the van helsing dream but i'll try and throw that one up now.


I really thought i had it written down somewhere. well this could take a bit to write out.

Next up, vampire hunting dream. yeah, its gets wierd

So just letting everyone know that tomorrow i will be posting my van helsing dream. its amazing first of all. then i really only have about 3 more solid dreams i can remember. hopefully tonight i can have a crazy zombie fighting dream or something. anyways, check back soon!

update, i know i said tomorrow but i got busy and forgot. sorry, it'll be soon!

Dream log

Well since i'm pretty sure no one reads this and its too much work to have something like this on a personal journal site, i decided to make this a dream log blog. warning, things get a little outta control.

so last night i had a really weird dream. all i remember is this one part.

keep in mind i would never actually do this.

-so, i walked into a bathroom in some huge office building and there were 2 sinks opposite from eachother on opposite walls like so
wall 1-sink   (space)    sink-wall2
well there was a lady working on the sink on wall one, and for some reason i thought it would be funny to pee in the sink on the other wall. so i walked over there, turned on the water so she wouldn't notice and started peeing in the sink. why i unbuttoned my jeans is beyond me but they start sliding down. then the lady looks over and asks what i'm doing. awkward. so is say i'm just washing my hands and she goes 'why are your pants falling down then?' i said 'oh' like i hadn't noticed, but neglected to pull them up cuz i was still going. then she keeps asking me what i'm doing, apparently i had to go really bad and i wasn't done yet. so then i woke up.

the end.